I believe I just heard gun shots o__O (I’m scared)

The Daily Million and One Thoughts

I am a strong believer in positive thinking, but lately I’ve been really thinking a lot lately. No, I’m depressed or sad, I’m just feeling lost although relaxed. I got of school this Friday and have since then been relaxing (….well attempting). While at school, my program director told me about a fashion internship opportunity. I was stoked because I always wanted to intern at a fashion corp or anything that has to with fashion. I was given the opportunity to get in contact with Jessica Styles a successful up and coming entrepreneur. I was even given the chance to an unplanned interview, which went okay (just okay) During the “interview” Styles made me realize that I need to stop being so afraid and go out and do things such as, intern, work, explore, and keep myself updated. Even after the interview I have not gone out and have done much. I stay home a lot and just think, I am always self reflecting. I am always thinking about the future and thinking about how much I really want to change and transform but I don’t do shit  about it. I need to live, go out side and explore.

Flowers & All

I am a bud, awaiting the spring showers to arrive. 

For 18 long years I have been suffering from a drought

Wondering everyday when will the magical waters of April appear

It is the purified water from the Zamzam Well that I need to cleanse my mind, body, and soul. 

The water that will flourish me into the beautiful flower I know I am. 

MY Goal(s) for the summer ——->

Grow

Travel

Be in control

Begin taking risk

To love, to be loved

Expand on my knowledge

Learn to proudly raise my middle finger and say ” I don’t give a fuck” (TO BE FREE!)

Honey Boo Boo Child

I want him to be just that, but I can’t even allow my mouth to open and allow air to come out when I’m around him. UGH I need to grow some damn balls already. I don’t know, I just feel as if he’s too good for me, but see that all have to do with my insecurities. People always assume that I have this high of top confidence but that’s not the case, it just how I carry myself. I don’t even have a crush on him, I find him interesting and mysterious. I want to get to know him, but where am I going to start if I can’t even open my mouth…

Me

Good heart + shy personality + strong pride + perfectionist + hopeless romantic + insecure + chaser = that’s all me & more!

Dirty Roommate >:-(

I am honestly tired of the odor that exist in this room, my lungs are suffocating. I’ve tried everything from candles to cleaning up daily SMH! It’s really aggravating, I’m really about to blow up on this chick she is really lacking personal hygiene >:-(